I'm back...

~cuddling up in bed~

It sure has been way too long since i last blogged.
i just feel it's about time to get back to it.
there's so much i wana say. there's so much i wana share.
so much has happened in my life... and that's not necessarily a bad thing.
i just think it's time to reflect on things, primary my life of course, and blogging helps me to do just that.
it's.. pretty therapeutic if you ask me. :)

anyway, i'm not gona spend too much time on this.
i think the last blog didnt really work out because i spent too much time and effort on it.
it should really be concise; just straight to the point and no BS.
possibly just a pic or two but nothing more.
that way i can spend more time on things that really matter.
that's right, my inner thoughts.

so... where should i start?
hmm.... let's keep it really simple for now.

i've meant to say this a long time ago... but...
i think i deserve better.
i really do.
i'm really tired of how people treat me.
at this point in my life, i really can't tolerate any bullshit.
no second chances. i really think it's a waste of my time.
all i need is sincerity. if you can't give me that the first try, then i'm sorry.

i've started dating again.
it's been difficult. a lot of guys out there are assholes/douchebags/fuckwits.
it's really depressing. but i'm still pressing on.
frankly speaking, many of them have come running back to me, because they realise i'm a keeper.
well, sorry guys, better luck next time.

see, this is where the prob lies...

i'm not sure what or how i should handle it.
all i'm asking is sincerity... if you screw it up once, i'm definitely not taking you back.
however, that only means i'll be by myself till i meet someone else.
and lately, it's been pretty lonely...

So should i continue to be this stubborn and not settle for anything less?
or should i just give in and just say yes to any tom dick or harry?

it took me this long to say this but... i really think i do deserve better.
i still dont think i'm ready to settle for anything less...
but... i really need someone in my life right now. (not in a desperate kinda way)

so...
here's hoping...
that one fine day...
some guy would come into my life and sweep me off my feet...